Feel

Weird huh? I blog for years & I didnt blog for years
Things didn't change much I guess, guess the only difference is we are all getting old
Finally getting to know where we belong, where we wanna be in
Sadly, we are getting old but thats the best part, its lovely to know we are getting better
Seeing everyone is moving on with their tracks, and of course, mine too.

Realized whenever I (USED TO) feel alone and I type, I feel sad I type, yadayada
Luckily now no more, I do felt like I'm tired, lazy, but weirdly didnt feel the emptiness like before
Gladly
You know why
I do feel the love you give already.
Thank you

Same thing I'll try to make you feel - my love <3
As always
As I grow old with you

ADELE- MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE LYRICS!

Expecting

Sometimes you open your door



You see the ordinary bed
Folding with the shirt scattered over the place
Where the same o place seems the same
Trashes placed beside the door and it seems ants crawling around having fun
What to do?

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You see

You see rains and you see clouds
You see cars and you see roads
You see water on the floor
Cars drive through and splash on you
You feel wind and you feel cold
You feel chilly in your bones
You know things isnt always there for you
You wanna drive and you wanna hide
You can't seems to run away from this endless deny
When things gone bad and you know why
Tricky thoughts slip into your mind when the song played
Every breath I take have some smell of you
Every thoughts I have there is image of you
Every things I've done I wish I'm doing with you
Every second I have is Misery without you

无奈

很累
讲话很累
想东西很累
做paperwork很累
帮别人做工很累
帮别人擦屁股很累
没理由的被人干，很累
很累
看东西很累
脑袋很累
不想去想
不想用任何脑袋的细胞做任何事
不想在你身边还要提心吊胆的说每一句话
不想浪费珍贵的时间，而尽量说话说废话说笑话
但是结果是不堪设想

心情颓废不想说话
也不可以
你要我怎样？

我很累，我不想用脑
单纯的说话不可以吗？
你的自尊可以不要放进来吗？

谨言

当年听不懂一句话
大人们说， 人越老，越没有特权
傻傻的小屁孩们哪里知道当中道理？
很多时候，一些东西你明白得早，你越有优势
吊，鬼都知道早起的鸟有虫吃啦
但是当你看透的时候，却太迟补救
这是什么?
人生

当你发现你不可以偷懒坐在椅子上发呆一整天
当你发现你的房间堆满灰尘却懒惰打扫
当你发现很多帐单与欠债还没有还
当你发现脸的书不能为所欲为彩绘情绪与感言


当然还有很多的当你
它和你的年龄同岁，你越老它越多
接受老化带来的转变有时候会犯现在不知不觉中
恭喜你
但如果你还在困扰于以上及其他可能出现的状况
请检讨

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更新1
我在做工
最近的工作是MasterChef
当然是很大型的
说到大型
人多嘴杂
而且见识到什么叫 人在江湖，身不由己
谨言，不够
目明，不够
总之你把你的最好做出来，在别人面前可能只是努力拉出来的米田共
到最后
站定脚步，自有对策

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更新2
当不满意现况，就努力去改变
此乃最近的动力来源
婚姻家庭钱财， 我不信我做不到！


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Heart you

<3 你momo怪
我很累，但是我很开心

Unrestoreable

When time seems not helpin in retrieving what you had before
even though you tried
and been challenged by uncontrollable factor
Don't blame

It's never been your problem.
though you might can't run away from the guiltiness in you
you can always try
you failed in external factor that you can't do a thing
but you can try, not to take it personal

after all you not gonna lose yourself
the oddest thing is you giving yourself up
when there is people actually cared for you
and you never gonna know ever again.


Life's never been easy on me
Time train me like a soldier, with daily events exercise my soul, troubles to workout my mind
Need not to say pity, because when life gets to you easily, it'll get harsh someday too
such practices helps me opened up my eyes
you'll find it lucky when you are clear enough to observe what's around you
and you'll know how to do without leaving yourself in state of regret when time comes.
You learn to thank, to appriciate


Lastly,
The last thing that everyone trying to preserve
is the laughs and smiles you every had when time flies.






"Something is not lost until you say it is, the moment of losing it is when you gave up trying"


=) Smiles and laughter's for all my friends and family, and my other half.
Wish you all have great days ahead.
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灌输

音乐是一样很神奇的东西
我喜欢听歌
在很多人的闹区，听不到杂音，只有我的音乐
我喜欢听抒情类的
在闹市，在驾驶
不是歌词，是每一首歌的音乐

不同的节拍有不同的感想
最近的感想有很多
原因出自，我在一个人生的转折点
它带着过往的距离与记忆
以及只能想起，却回不去的时代

在晚上11点，驾着我的小摩多
经过巴士车站，站前有一辆巴士
巴士上只有零丁几个人
音乐为这一幕上了颜色，也让我上了感慨
试想我，或我们有多久开始不要搭巴士了
不像以前
补习，上课，出去走街，和朋友
在没有冷气的烂巴士，早1小时等巴士，再等转车
玩闹后的下午，又等了1小时，慢慢回家
没有facebook, 很少SMS, 很多MSN
炫耀自己msn有了几多个人同时Chatting
第二天，学校再见，再笑，再谈，再闹，再玩



我已经很少搭巴士了
过了那一个季节，那一个回不去的单纯
我不喜欢搭巴士了
让一个充满陌生人的铁箱，运载我到我想到的目的地
只有满怀的感慨
让人坐在那里，想着过去，笑的，苦的，哭的，甜的
可是那不再是可以重来的过去


人生，越老越寂寞
现在的人生只能继续走下去
无论音乐如何让一人沉淀，亦只能让人好好珍惜
回忆不难被创造，难的是如何创造美丽的回忆
我现在回忆着好的，坏的，忆现在脑
明白明天不容易，想着现在的任何联系与关系，可能只是到今天
睡醒了，是不一样的明天，我有勇气睡醒后继续昨天的联系，与关系
你有吗？ 你放弃了吗？



我现在已经选择不搭巴士
我相信我的读者也是
闹市中听着自己的收音机，或CD
在车内自己一个人无聊
或者带着耳机，在人海中畅游
在你脑袋灌输音乐的同时
你会不会像我一样
这一刻，你想起你的朋友了吗？

盼望

人在大城市很容易Emo
为什么？很简单

城市越大，人显得越渺小
你认识的熟人，几率又更小
你能去的地方多了，可是能陪你的人几率少了
问题多了，可是解决方案却还是一样

人越老，越多问题
以前不会明了，现在看清了知道了
到最后，看开了

幸运我很特殊，比较早看开了
知道不是每一个故事都能按照自己想法而发生
你要的东西，是需要时间精力，以及一点点的运气
很多时候，自己一个人在发呆Emo
好听点，沉淀自己的情绪
不好听的，浪费时间
明明知道有问题的存在却不要解决
明明知道心情不好还放任自己腐烂
明明知道时间不多却还要慢慢期待

想要的东西，不妨说出来
想做的事情，不尝试是不会知道结果的
一个人的朋友，是需要自己去建立
一个人的名声，是你的所作所为筑立起来的沙堡，它可以很美丽，可是不持久
一个人的宝殿可以很期待别人的造访
明明希望让有心人拜访，那为什么还设立重重围墙与陷阱
明明有着一颗善意的心却特意为它涂上了颜色沾上了刺
你要何时才学会放下你门外的守卫，瓦解你那让人无奈的围墙


人生其中一个无奈点，是Times Up. 结束.
一段友情，一段亲情，一个工作，一个生命，一个自己
失去友情，失去亲人，失去工作，失去生命，失去自己
很高兴的说
我的友情我很珍惜，很谢谢大家
我的亲人我很珍惜，很谢谢我的爱人
我的工作，即将拥有，我很期盼
我的生命，我会珍惜，因为我要和我珍惜的人度过，我的朋友，我的家人，和我的爱人
我自己，我很坚定现在的我有着自己的目标，不会被动摇，没有失去感情的信心
我不希望会失去以上的东西，因为有了它们，才有我

如果每一个人心里有一颗种子
种子是“我是别人的养分”
那么每个人都会好好的，对自己对别人
对不对？

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醒悟

在我睡觉之前
很想说一些话

现在是4am， 13号9月

考试？ 转眼就到
读书？现在没有
做么？我不知道
睡觉？不想

在这种半夜没有人的时候，心显得很安静
在心处于什么都不想的时候，不是寂寞
只是沉思
沉思于很多东西
烦恼的
喜欢的
紧张的
奇怪的
好的
坏的
刁的
平时不会想的东西
什么都在这个时候跑出来
空一下自己的脑袋
电脑也有喜欢重整的时候，何况是人？

男人老了
对外做的所有东西都不可以想以往
不顾形象
不顾后果
不是心情不好就要黑脸的
不是想作弄人就把以前的小孩性格往外抛
不可以以为自己的搞笑行为是应该被谅解，因为别人应该知道你在搞笑
做过的东西
到最后还是回到自己
当初的无知
和现在当下应有的理智与成熟
要懂得分配
毕竟
23岁
不小了，虽然不要想起
是时候做一个男人
负责任的男人

Have a nice day =)

DJ的梦想

曾经很喜欢把东西写上网
感觉上锻炼自己的文艺细胞
虽然我看起来应该没有什么特殊天分
但是有些生活上的小技巧小艺术，我应该也还可以吧？
如果撇开懒惰这个障碍，我应该可以比现在更多成就哈哈哈


=====================请稍候啊~=====================
我觉得我什么都可以略懂
例如....

我喜欢在半夜的Assignment聚会上播歌，Emo之夜 哈哈哈
没有专业DJ的功力，好说也有余业的能耐吧? 当然，和一点点的苦心 哈哈
不然慢慢长夜，寂寞难耐啊
如果有机会，我还真的想学当DJ
不过...等有钱再说啦....
我已经开始需要养家了... 唉.....



这是KC的emo之歌，送你！哈哈

咦？
好像没有什么了...
OPPPSSSSS 哈哈哈

正面的Skill目前只想到一个
负面的有很多
留待下次吧 =)

Have a nice day =)

及时

我家人总是喜欢打电话给我
问很多问题
而我总不喜欢被打扰，喜欢属于自己的私人时间
我会说, 我很好，没事，如果没事不要找我
反正我就是这样一个人嘛

我妈说，“打电话给儿子有问题啊？”
虽然孝顺的小朋友会觉得我没很德
也不孝顺
但是我就是不理解那意思

我又不是不喜欢我家人
只是我觉得
如果没消息 就等于好消息
这个道理说出来，被自家男友巴死
要到了我正式踏入一段感情
把一个人当作亲人的时候
才知道其实自己的消息
对爱你的人是很重要的
即使很多时候
很多东西不会被说出口
但是不代表不存在
慢慢的我才明白那个关系的存在
其实没有想象中弱

此概念在我这个即将23岁的脑袋
才姗姗来迟的到来
当然
我觉得迟到好过没有到
随意时间观念我并不看重
（快点巴死我哈哈哈哈）

最近消息与更新比较少
就当作是好消息啦 XD

简单说明
老子的生活很好
恋人关系，OK
家人关系，OK
朋友关系，OK
学业, 这个嘛需要一点努力啦
钱财, 这个也是需要时间，要开始计划未来
车，屋子，用品，生活，都需要钱



希望各位Utar 最后一年开心一点拉
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As long as you live

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
            and remember what peace there may be in silence.


                 As far as possible, without surrender,
                   be on good terms with all persons.
                  Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
                          and listen to others,
                   even to the dull and the ignorant;
                       they too have their story.
                   Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
                    they are vexatious to the spirit.


                  If you compare yourself with others,
                     you may become vain or bitter,
   for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
             Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
           Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
        it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.


               Exercise caution in your business affairs,
                   for the world is full of trickery.
           But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
                  many persons strive for high ideals,
                 and everywhere life is full of heroism.
             Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
                     Neither be cynical about love,
           for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
                    it is as perennial as the grass.


                  Take kindly the counsel of the years,
              gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
     Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
           But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
             Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.


                     Beyond a wholesome discipline,
                        be gentle with yourself.
                     You are a child of the universe
                  no less than the trees and the stars;
                      you have a right to be here.
                 And whether or not it is clear to you,
            no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

                     Therefore be at peace with God,
                    whatever you conceive Him to be.
                And whatever your labors and aspirations,
                     in the noisy confusion of life,
                        keep peace in your soul.


             With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
                     it is still a beautiful world.
                    Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Be it

What makes you think of home?
A house? Yes apparently
A garden, well depends
A sofa? Hmm I am just okie with that
A Bed? Hello Where I sleep?
A Husband/Wife? Thats the best part
To me
My home, I give a definition of my own.

Is when you have a significant one and live with you under the same roof, with a DOG running around at your garden, where both of em can be playing around.

A dog, is what I need for My Home.
Guess many of you guys know I choose to settle down with a guy.
So be it.

Golden Retriever is my all time favourite
MAN I WANNA GET ONE SOON!!

*This is a dog I saw at The Curve's Pet shop- Ikano side*
Isn't it adorable?

BTW,
this is a blog of sharing my life
If you have problem reading it, tell me
I will be around.

Dc sign out~~
Have a nice day =)

奋争

我总希望自己有一天，能够站在须于自己的地方
做自己喜欢的东西
争取想要的地位
得到生命中重要的伴侣


可是人生路途哪有那么容易？
有谁的人生，不是荆棘满途的？

我只能希望着
现在我所做的，所努力的
能够带给我想要的未来
我想要的家
我想要的车
我想要的生活

我想要的，很多
让我奋斗的目标，也有很多
当然
希望除了有了事业，成就
还希望有健康，寿命
和你继续走下去

为未来加油 =)
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Have a nice day

等巴

从小到大我都不是很有钱的那位
不能像那些小孩，有车载送
看到家长站在门口位置等待自己的小孩
当时的我，还真的看到很不爽
哈哈


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还记得小时候的Bus Sekolah
车佬 & 车婆
小学的时候总会有一位监督在巴士上
然后就是没有冷气
巧克力或蓝色坐垫的椅子

现在的我，已不是那种等巴士的小孩
但是偶尔在路上，看到Bus Sekolah
难免会想起当时的我，坐在一大堆小孩
听着他们胡闹，看着大家玩耍
默默地等待巴士把小孩一个一个送回家
讲话声随着Bye Bye 之后
慢慢的被引擎声覆盖
小孩们玩闹走动变得沉静
太阳慢慢的下山
天色越来越黑
巴士上，人越来越少

我永远都不喜欢当最迟下车的那位
不喜欢感觉到身边没有人
不喜欢呆在不属于自己的地方
不喜欢黑暗(小时候嘛)
不喜欢让自己有落寞的感觉
不喜欢别人回到了自己的家，而我没有那么一个家
我不喜欢和别人讲话，可是我却不喜欢安静

到最后，才发现自己
只是一个不喜欢寂寞的小孩
我什么都不喜欢
什么都可以讨厌
哈哈
如果现在偶男友看了，应该会说我
GUAI LAN!

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现在，我就是我
我变了
变得敢怒敢言
你不喜欢可以别看
不过请不要带有色眼镜看待别人
人人平等，你没有资格否定别人



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Have a nice day

Rich shit

I ain't a someone noble
I can't get myself in control especially my temper
I'd give you middle finger if you really pissed me off
Take note of that

I don't like being accuce for nothing
or something I didn't commit
or, something that is not true about me
or, labeling me

What I hated the most is
<>
Who the Fuck makes you think I am rich and What the fuck makes you think I am rich?
MCB i willing to pay is because you noob shit are too GIAM SIAP to pay
I pay because I am a guy
I pay is because you're a friend
I pay doesn't mean I am rich
I was hoping you'll do the same thing back to me
DON'T FUCKING THINK I AM FUCKING RICH SO THAT I'D PAY FOR YOU BEER ALL THE TIME, REMEMBER THAT NOOB SHIT!
I am not giving any specific names here, but this statement is to many human being.


Gonna blast out the flaming aura in me
Okie, Ciaoz

Dc sign out =)
Take care and Have a nice day.

Hate that I love you so

I always underestimate people's potential
When I was a kid, things happened forced me to seal my emotions away deep down inside me
Never know how or when "It" got loose.
YOU!

Because of YOU!

From the time I hadn't seeing you, YOU appears in my brain.

From the time I hadn't listen from you, everything I hear as if YOU are around.

From the time I know you, YOU haunted my mind.

From the time I fall in love with you, YOU craved somewhere of my soul.

What I'd say it, DAMN YOU, SCREW YOU. For making me so miserable, uncontrollable, inestimable, indescribable, unexplainable, and oh yeah, very vulnerable to every thing YOU did.

No wonder even Rihanna sang "Hate that I love you so."


Few days I didn't hear from you, get any message, seeing you, holding you....
Hell know this freaking feeling haunting me like crazy
Every Night dreamt of things that will makes me think of you.

Last Night,
I dreamt you called.
I pick up the phone while I still sleeping,
I rush to the table,
In the dream, I was thrilled,
and hoping it was you calling.
And It was your name, showing on my Phone that you calling me.

Reality,
I do have a phone call that wakes me up
I rush to the table and pick it up
it is the F***ing Digi Promo thingy that calls.
MCHLJCJBPKHGCLFHDNSHGLDHS!!
(No doubt, it is a series of XX)

Okie, I admit
I am not mad because loving you.
I am just too mad about myself, too rely on you.
That I'd been putting my whole body-mind-soul-whatsoever to you
You are lucky to have me.
Better watch out!

Miss you extremely aggressively crazily everlastingly fatally and faithfully.

Done with all the crap
Dc sign out.
Thank you for wasting time.
Have a nice day =)

梦坊

发了一个怪梦


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地点: Pharmacy
时间: 日间


我到Pharmacy买药
到了柜台，Pharmacist 是一个老伯
我说我肚子痛要买药，他说:很简单，Antibiotik就好了
不过要等一下
我很奇怪为什么
他转过身坐东西
然后我闻到一阵香味
我蹲下，右手边架子里面有两碗快熟面，各自上面铺了一片Cheesedale Cheese
好香
我站起来，我左手边有一位A人士在做快熟面Sampling
我问他: 可以煮一碗面，上面放Cheese会好吃哦
他说: ok,我弄给你

镜头一换，我在那间Pharmacy的角落
看着两个小孩在吃那碗面，很开心的样子
然后那个做Sampling煮好了叫我过去
我走过去他的旁边，桌子上放了一滩面
他把Cheese放上去，可是却一个人开始吃了
然后说: 好吃哦
我看不爽了，拿起筷子，自己拿了Cheese，铺在靠近自己的面上，也吃了

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醒来了，有的是满怀的思念
因为只有你会煮了快熟面
Cheese放进快熟面上面给我吃

一觉醒来
11.50am, 4th May 2010
说不出的空虚
只能说
你快点滚出来吧，我快想死你了



Have a nice day everyone =)